New.. Late..?

My New Year's resolutions is to just be a better version of myself and to dream bigger and better, and so I am going to give you a little insight on how I am going to do this. I am going to start off with writing on my blog and keep all informed with every life decision. Or you could just follow me on Twitter and get stupid annoying updates. (;D) Not kidding, I could keep you up to date on every bowel movement, seriously kidding. I am also going to make the best of my last moments of being a teenager. Get my 'teenage rebellion' in now, while I can still call it "my teenage rebellion..months.." It would make for a pretty sweet album title. I am also going to try, now I say try because I am not too fond of this art and craft, but try, to be more active. Sexually active?! Not a chance, sorry, but I respect myself WAY too much. Now I could easily delete that last line, but I have to have some teenage things that I regret.. question mark?

Another thing I am going to try and do is just be happy. =) I find myself lately just looking at the bad things and getting depressed over them. I know what it stems from and I am going to tell you. It comes from my complete independent, and somewhat immature, quality to feel that I know everything. Knowledge is power, but the right kind of knowledge is even more powerful.
I also want to build stronger friendships, but this year is a transition year for everyone. Some of the people that are in my class will not likely be in my BA course next year. That makes me feel even more alone, because for the past 2 years I have been steadily more and more lonely. Moving away from home has made that a little bit harder and going back for Christmas and then leaving was a little tougher then I thought. Mostly, because I came to the realization that I don't really have a place that I can call "home." That frustrates, irritates and annoys me, I feel like I am in this medium of white/grey. I hate not feeling comfortable in my bed, I hate that I can't figure out a solid routine for the week.



So, because of all these frustrations, I have decided that I am going to get a job, to save for next year as well as give me a little more stability. I also feel, with more things to do, I will get more done. I won't be sitting at home watching movies and TV shows, wasting my time. I am going to be in my twenties soon, I want to start them off really well!!

Thus begins my new year, I know I am, like, 20 days late, but fashionably, after all I do attend the London College of Fashion.



I do promise to update more on this, it will be part of my routine. <3


I also hope I have inspired you reading this, to think of something that you want to accomplish by the end of the week, and do it. I would love it if you would tell me what it is that you want to get done.
It might give me some ideas!