Deadlines, Deadlines, Deadlines..

I have not been keeping this up on a very good routine.

HI!!

So a lot has gone on since my last post. We just finished our course hand-ins, that was stressful. I just got back my last hand-in today. The final tally, minus my design course, is Merits in Photography, Photoshop and Personal Professional Development. As well as earning a Distinction in Fashion industry, I kind of schmoozed my way into that one, I have been a kiss ass all term and have all the tutors adoring me.

You may be wondering how the grading system works, well, it goes something like this:

To get a Merit or Distinction you must have a Level 3 (Which is the equivalent of "exceeds expectations") and meet all the criteria needed to pass the course and then go above and beyond. A Level 2 is just a pass, meaning all criteria was shown but minimal effort was put in.

The college has a Level system that Access Students must earn a Level 3 for the year to go onto a Undergraduate course. It's weird but it works. So far I have all Level 3's in all of my courses, now I just have to maintain that.

As well as handing in all my work so far, I have to figure out which courses I want to apply to. They have changed since we last spoke. Central Saint Martins is not the school for me, also they don't have a costume programme, so I am out of luck on that one. But that is fine, because I have access to all the 5 schools I can go and use the facilities at CSM any time, I have been in there a few times, it really demands the students to think creatively and "out of the box" to the extreme. The atmosphere of the school is really quite nice however, but depending on which department you go to, things could get real weird REAL fast. I've heard some stories about the theatre kids. Although the reputation of the school would be nice to have, the Royal Academy of Dramatic Arts is where you need to go if you want "theatre." I have scheduled myself for an open day, to go and see the school and have a talk about the course, as well as a free workshop to try out different things that the school offers.

I've also looked into courses at my college that are for costume design and performance, they are pretty good as well. I have a lot of decision making to do if I get back multiple offers.


But enough about school, I HAVE MADE MORE AND MORE FRIENDS!!!!
Yet the irony of it, I have still not been out to a proper night club. I will most likely go this weekend or next, just with all my hand-ins and deadlines, it's a little tough. The friends that I have are incredible, I can have so many laughs with them and I would hate to loose any of them!


I have also been going through a little bit of homesickness. There are just comforts that I want to have and people that I just want to hug. I miss my brother a lot, and skype is just not enough. It is great, don't get me wrong, but there is a very small window in the day where I can talk to him. I just miss being around my family, just being close to them, just in the same room. That would be nice.

Blubber, blubber, blubber.. All right, that is it today, if I think of anything more it will go up here in another post.

Long time!! Hellooo

So I have not posted in a long time, I am not going to lie, I forgot about it. SOORRRRYY!!

BUT!, I am going to get back into the swing of things, because I can now use this for the Courses and Careers portion of my course. I can use at more of a diary. It might get personal, but not really. (it's been pretty personal)

The course is only a couple of weeks, so it's not that long, but we are supposed to pick out what we are wanting our BA's to be. At first I was like, "Well, I have no idea what the eff I want to do..." Then, one of my tutors was looking through my sketchbook to see my progress, he said, and I QUOTE "It's very costume-y.." 

Sorry. What?

My knee jerk reaction to that was relief, it wasn't textiles or print. There is nothing wrong with either of those, but if that was what I was good at I would need some serious counselling, I think I would collapse. It's just not where I see myself in 10 years. But costume, I have done 2 plays already (designed and made the costumes), seems like a natural placement for me. I can always go into womenswear later on, but I have always desired the skills of costume making and design. So, I started mulling over the idea, then I was talking to my mum and a couple friends, and slowly but surely I convinced myself that, yes, costume is where I should go. I can even still get into Central Saint Martins  It's just a matter of convincing myself that yes, I am that good. I've always had extreme self doubt. I know that I sometimes, most of the time, come off as extremely confident. The fact of the matter is that I feel I need to have every ones approval and opinion, which can be a good thing but it also has it's negatives. Needing constant affirmation can be annoying for some people. I just like to know what people are thinking, so that I can make my work that much better. I voice my opinion, others should feel like they can too. 

I think the one idea that sold me on going into costume design was the fact that I could possibly work with my brother later on in life. He wants to go into acting, also if I could achieve an Oscar or a BAFTA for my work, that would be AMAZING!

Just knowing that I could if I wanted to, switch over to womenswear later on in life makes me a little happier. I can take the skills from costume and apply them in a very wearable way. I look at my favorite designers and they're on the verge of costume. Galliano, Elie Saab, McQueen and the great John Paul Gaultier.

Now it's just a question of school, there is Central Saint Martins, Wimbledon and LCF that are a part of University of the Arts London. Then there are also Royal Academy of Dramatic Arts (RADA) and Nottingham University that have caught my eye, so I don't really know. CSM is my dream school, but I am intimidated, I don't feel like I quite deserve to be there. But I know I will be kicking myself if I don't go there,  I will feel like if I don't go there then I am not as good as I thought. It's a lot of pressure I am putting on myself.

I don't know if any of this is making sense, I am going to apply to all of them, and then if I get accepted to all of them I will have a REALLY TOUGH DECISION. (CSM..Duh)

Talk to yea soon!!