I feel like each day I am growing more as a human being. I fully understand what it is to be a "Beautiful Butterfly" as the catterpillar in A Bugs Life put it. Although I don't feel like a butterfly just yet, I am slowly breaking out of my cocoon and I can feel the air of "real life" around me.
I went to see Big Ben and Trafalgar's Square today. I will have to go back, there were so many people there from the Olympics, you could hardly focus on anything for too long. I say this because it was, like walking around in a very plump tuna fish net. You move in any direction and you will get hit, by someone or some moving mode of transportation, biking and buses are a big thing over here. I also went to the National Gallery and the National Portrait Gallery.
I must tell you something before I continue. In grade 12 I took an English Literature course, it was seriously the best course I took in high school. Sorry Mrs. Vance, your classes put me in the position that I am in today, but English Literature gave me the strength for today. I learned so much about myself, culture, religion, art and society. I probably cannot tell you everything I learned, we covered a lot in just 6 months. I can tell you however, that when I walk next to a portrait of Alfred Lord Tennyson or Mr. and Mrs. Browning and what we discussed in class comes flooding back at me, like I was there not 5 minutes ago, it is moving. I appreciate the art so much more, because I have something I can relate it to. I made a connection to that piece. Also, when you walk by a portrait that you've seen in a book, just a tiny little thumbnail, and then see it in real life. That is something. I can't quite describe it, but it cements a feeling inside you. It kind of zips you in with history. Somehow, you are a part of it.
For that class I will be forever grateful. Mrs. Glenda Dolcetti you made that class memorable.
I know I will go to the National Gallery again, I was so inspired by the paintings. By the clothes! I wish I had brought my sketch book with me, although I was afraid my bag would be too heavy, and I know myslef well enough that I get tired after a while, which I did. So, packing light was good in the long run.
As for the housing situation, I have it covered! I found a flat within a 15 minute walking distance to my school! I will be sharing a room, so it cuts down on my costs a little, plus transportation will be cut too. I am just thrilled that I am starting my own journey! For so long, not really, I have been dreaming of this happening that now that it finally has, it's a little surreal. I don't know how to describe it without sounding boringly cheesy. It's just awesome. I recomend following dreams to experience these "fantasy" feelings.
As for my Mum, Dad and my brother. I miss them all terribly. I can feel the tears welling in my eyes as I type. I know it will get easier, but just for right now. I want a hug from my mummy. If I could have one thing, that would be it.
"I just need the one wish genie, thanks for the other 2, but I'll pass for right now."
I feel so...Normal, finally.
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